Faith Over Fear: An Honest Conversation with God

About a month ago, I started feeling a push on my heart to leave my job. It’s a job I’ve only had for five months—fairly easy, just 24 hours a week, and I get to interact with people. But the downside? I’m usually too exhausted on my days off to do much else because of my disability. And most of my shifts end at 10 p.m., which means I’m not home during dinner, missing time with my teenage son and my daughter, who is autistic. As a single mom, that matters.

So when I felt the nudge to walk away from it… I ignored it. Why? Fear. I’d already budgeted everything. I needed that extra $500 a month. I didn’t have savings to fall back on if something went sideways.

Then one night, while scrolling Facebook, I came across an ad for a Christian Entrepreneur group. Their theme? God is my CEO. I felt a tug and decided to join—because honestly, all the secular advice I’d followed to build my business had fallen flat. I needed a different kind of community. One that put God at the center.

Fast forward to July 13th. I was in a class at church during the 10:00 service, completing a requirement for those looking to serve. As we walked through the lobby, I heard Pastor Andy’s voice echo over the speakers: “God needs to be the center of your business.” It hit me straight in the chest.

Then I stayed for the 11:30 service. About 10 minutes in, Pastor Andy spoke again:

“God has given each of us a calling. If you’re not doing that calling, that’s disobedience. Disobedience is sin.”

I was convicted. There was no denying it anymore. That afternoon, I went to work and put in my notice.

But fear didn’t disappear. It tightened its grip almost immediately. What had I done? Did I mishear? Misstep?

Then, on Monday morning, I saw a post in the Christian Entrepreneur group. Someone needed help building a website. I’ve done that before. I responded, offered to help, and she hired me. Just like that.

My fear softened. For a moment.

But it crept back in—because that’s what fear does.

So I kept praying. I asked God to strengthen my faith and forgive me for the moments I doubted.

This morning, while still trying to convince myself to get out of bed, a song played: “Honest Conversation” by Katy Nichole. The last part of the chorus stopped me:

“Can I just be real for a minute?
The trust in You gets lost in my feelings
This war inside is flesh and spirit
And it feels like flesh is gonna win it
But You’re the one I put my faith in
The proof is that I’m still here praying
I know You care what my heart’s really saying
So God, let’s have an honest conversation.”

And then I heard it—even felt it—clear as day:

Faith over fear doesn’t mean faith without fear. It means faith through the fear.

Just because you trust God doesn’t mean you won’t be scared.

Daniel had to be terrified when he stepped into that lion’s den (Daniel 6). Moses begged God to send someone else because he felt inadequate and afraid (Exodus 4:10-13). David faced a literal giant with no armor and a slingshot (1 Samuel 17).

They were scared. But they moved anyway. They trusted anyway. And God showed up.

I believe He’ll show up for me. And I believe He’ll show up for you.

So if you’re scared but still walking in obedience, you’re doing it right.

Keep praying. Keep showing up. Keep choosing faith through the fear.

“When I am afraid, I put my trust in You.” — Psalm 56:3 (NIV)
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